Warning: this post is going to be a rant.
Lately, as things have been improving more and more for me financially, I’ve noticed something very interesting.
Each new milestone or goal I reach is becoming less and less exciting.
I can distinctly remember a night about a year ago when I hit a business goal I had set. I put on some tunes and was skipping down the street at 10pm, feeling on top of the world.
Fast forward to today. I just finally celebrated a goal I hit back in March. And I don’t think I’ve skipped down the street in months, even though I’ve had lots of things to skip about.
This year is probably the most emotionally stable I’ve been in a number of years. And really, I’m happier right now than I have been in a long time. Not that happiness is always a great measure of ones self, but it’s not a bad indicator.
So, what’s going on?
A few things, I think. And I’m hoping writing these out will help me clarify things more.
I think I crave the unknown. And right now…I have a lot of “knowns” in my life.
I know that I love my girl and want to continue dating her.
I know I will be living in the same place for the foreseeable future.
I know that my business is growing and stable.
So, why in the world do I crave the unknown? I don’t know. I do know I’ve always been attracted to high adrenaline type activities (flying jets, day trading, javelin throwing ,etc). Risk has always been something I felt very comfortable with, and right now, I’m not taking much risk at all.
Also, I’ve outsourced myself out of a lot of my work. Which, is exactly what a business owner is supposed to do…but now I’m like, “well, what the heck do I do now…”. I’m bringing my half-time employee on full time next month, and so I really need to find some higher level stuff for myself to work on.
Maybe I just need a hobby. Wow. It’s just beautiful out here today. Amazing.
The Mountains from D.K. Kidd on Vimeo.
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I just found your blog and it’s awesome. I would use word “inspirational” but I hate that word so I’ll just say it’s awesome. Don’t stop writing for the love of internets.
Dude, watch this video and get inspired! I suggest you get passionate about a charitable organization and start volunteering.
http://mydebtcomeback.blogspot.com/2009/05/thank-you-god.html
S0 are you willing to describe your business at all? From what you have said it sounds interesting? Can you elaborate at all?
@ Bob – I have some in the past, I have a small commercial software business. I don’t want any clients finding my blog for obvious reasons. I also do some marketing consulting as well as my work with LendingClub.com. I sit in front of a computer 12 hours a day, but I do enjoy my work.
I think that another possibility is that a milestone or good news does inspire the same reaction out of you is that you do not have the start contrast of a life altogether in chaos. I have read through all of your past posts and for a while you were living in utter chaos. You sounded like you were a constant ball of worry and nerves and were uncertain as to if you could keep things together. Fast forward to today. Everything sounds to be going very well for you. You are making progress on your road to financial recovery, there are fewer things up in the air for you. The good news and milestones don’t have quite the same effect when taken in with the generally better situation around you.