One of the biggest things I’m dealing with right now…
is the silence. the routine of “normal” life.
I just can’t seem to get into it. Even though I want to get up at the same time each day, I don’t. Even though I want to cook more for myself, get out more, call friends more, I don’t.
Being content with normalcy
An outsider looking in on my life would probably say, “wow. you’re really busy, doing some really neat work. how exciting!”
And it’s true. I am busy. I am working on cool stuff. I also work from home, which most of the time is 100% awesome.
I cannot deny that I am incredibly blessed.
And while I am excited for the future, the present feels a little boring. I think a part of me still longs for the “rush” that I used to get staying up ’til all hours of the night trading. I do miss that excitement. I have no desire to trade like that again, don’t worry! But I do wonder if I could fine a healthy way to come close to that rush again.
Until I do, or if that never happens, I need to be more “content with the mundane” as I say in the title. Content with being a grown up and accepting that it may take me more than a year (!!) to fix this mess that I am in.
Casey Serin is back. Oh dear
So, I noticed Mr. Infamous himself Casey Serin started following my twitter feed. He is back to blogging again at truecasey.com.
Casey contacted me a few months back about some short sale stuff. I just don’t understand him. His story is so fascinating to watch, you can’t help but wonder what mistake he will make next. Still, part of me wants him to succeed and realize the potential he has. I dunno, I feel bad that he lost his wife over his mistakes, but that’s life. When you do stupid things, there are consequences.
His story does make me glad that I am single. I already hurt my Mom with my past misdeeds, I am glad that I didn’t hurt a wife as well.
Speaking of ladies and the mundane
I am back to square zero with any lady friends. The two women I had my eye on both politely turned down my outing (date) ideas. Their loss…right? (or so my mother tells me)
It’s not a bad place to be really, it allows me to focus on work stuff. But I really wouldn’t mind a date or two someday…
More on my mistakes
I poured myself into what turned out to be a pretty nice post over at Lending Club about my 7 biggest business mistakes. I’ll probably write a follow up on the 7 things I’ve done right, next week. Come to think of it, if you like the article, I’d appreciate a thumbs up on stumbleupon for it!
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Nice on the progress bars to the right. Getting your debt down 7% is not so mundane!! Give yourself more credit than that. Please don’t compare yourself to Casey Serin. He is not helping anyone, even himself. Just a 21st century circus sideshow. Mundane is far preferable to Casey’s antidote.
On the other hand, you seem to be serious about what you are doing. Your articles and blogs are insightful and serve to help and inspire others.
Remember that rush, that charge, in anticipation of the big score usually (more often than not) resulted in a loss, not a big score. There is no easy money. Your excitement, your rush will come when you have paid off your debt. Same as your post about patience.
Maybe some daring type of sport, such as bmx biking, rapelling, or some other such reasonably safe but exciting sport would be a decent outlet for the rush you are seeking?
hey its me again i posted few months back.
i am having limited success with trading.
now im tempted to get into FX… but FX makes me very nervous.
just imagine someone that bought eur/usd a month ago, and if he held on till now.. probably wiped out now… lol
so volatile specially with the margins u get there.
debtkid, what strategy did u use to do FX ? did u do charting ?
u r right about that high rush u get when u make a nice trade.
there are days i can barely stop myself from making a trade , just for the sake of making a trade..
and then i end up cutting my losses as soon as the stock falls down.
those emotional trading often is what hurts your profits.
if u can make a good technical analysis, get ready to buy PUTS on the US markets.. i think u can make a decent profit.
i think US market will fall, just a question of when… me think probably sometime within next 2 months we will see a big drop.
Hey, with regards to the ladies, I know it was always a turn-off to me to date people in my church. I think you said they were people at your church that you were approaching, so I am giving you the girl’s view on dating people you go to church with. I did it several times and it just turns out with either one or the other looking for a different church to attend when things fall apart. Not worth it since you generally go to church to get away from your troubles and drama. I know lots of people do find great partners at church, but I found it wasn’t really the right place to be dating for me and made it a rule not to date people at my church.
It’s probably easier to meet people at a dance than it is at church, which is where I met most of the people I dated. Some place social that you can avoid later, if you have to.
Nice bar charts. That I like to see…It looks like you are doing something.
i think we just saw the first part of the drop
dow falls almost 350 points… WOW
just imagine if u had bought some PUTS last week… u would be up hugeeeee…